That other life of mine seems like such a distant memory now. But I still remember how I felt when I got out of a bad relationship. Like it was my fault, like I was the failure, like I had displeased God, like everyone was watching me, judging me, I shrunk down into an abyss. There are three people in my life who completely saved me and pulled me back out... First My dad, then my mom, and finally my now husband.
During that time of trial in my life, it seemed like such a monumentous battle. Why did this happen to me? Why did I allow myself to make such a massive mistake? But only now, looking at the size of the blessing that was on its way, can I fully understand why that battle was necessary. God had to make life pretty disastrous to get me to change my situation. He did that so that He could give me all I ever wanted. So that He could give me HIS plan for my life, instead of my plan... That I ever so royally screwed up. He took my mistake, and turned it into a teaching moment, then gave me my heart's desire.
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Romans 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.